What the hell happened!!
Well, Mark and Davene said the holiday period was going to be tough and boy were they right!! I can see why so many people quit around this time of year. The last few weeks have been so busy, but I think I have some legitimate excuses…. I mean I’ve just come out of a looooooong relationship, after moving around from different friends houses I then moved in with my brother and have been helping him renovate his flat with every possible spare bit of time I had, painting, building, sanding (oh the sanding) sawing, cutting, and pretty much everything else that goes with a flat renovation…..photo evidence below! On top of that I’ve been selling my flat which I shared with my EX. You see, it’s been pretty chaotic, I’ve been living out of a dusty bag, sleeping on a camp bed in the lounge and we’ve been trying to get the place ready for Christmas because our mum was coming to stay with us and for the last few weeks it’s been a building site.
We managed to just about get it looking good when my mum arrived to stay for 12 days… then came the Christmas work/friends/social events, plus birthdays etc….We had a great time and a great Christmas. But to be honest my work on the MasterKey kind of ground to a halt. We’re talking one or two sits a week, a few reads of OG a week! I really considered just giving up…I mean… I got some good excuses right 😉 NO! and then I remember…
I will persist until I succeed. One step at a time is not too difficult. I will persist. I will win!
I’ve had this horrible nagging feeling for the past 3 weeks hanging over me, like a little voice saying…”keep going, you’ve come this far, don’t you dare quit, do it now” and the old blueprint has been making all sorts of excuses: “You’re too far behind, this is not a good time for you, you don’t need this course.”
The things that kept me going were the webinars, and reading but mainly listening to my DMP. Hearing and visualising it on my way to work, last thing at night….I can’t imagine not fulfilling it now. I know I’m not the best MK student, to be honest I’ve never been a good student and I know there’s people on this course who are probably much much more dedicated but I’m not giving up. I need to finish this course and I need to finish strong. I’ve run out of excuses now… Christmas is over, the flat is finished, I finally have a bedroom, I’ve sold my old flat which I owned with my EX and all that is left is to dig deep and DO IT NOW!! 100%!
I love this line from week 12 Hannel:
The only way to keep from going backward is to keep going forward. Eternal vigilance is the price of success. There are three steps, and each one is absolutely essential. You must first have the knowledge of your power; second, the courage to dare; third, the faith to do.
And this one too…. It helps emphasise the importance of the sits, of being alone with your thoughts… and I couldn’t agree more.
The intention governs the attention. Power comes through repose. It is by concentration that deep thoughts, wise speech, and all forces of high potentiality are accomplished.
I also found the week 13 webby really useful. The testimonials at the beginning were great especially the story by Luc. It’s really inspirational to hear the stories of others who have been through the course. Week 13 is all about persistence!
Another thing that struck me is that I’ve been sharing my eperience with people, telling them bits and pieces about the master key (it’s hard not to when they ask why there’s strange colours and shapes all over the flat… lol) and it’s amazing to hear people’s responses…Initially I thought they’d be sceptical and judgemental.. but honestly the very opposite is true. People are really interested in what I’m doing and you can see them lighting up, not that I’m trying to teach it or anything, I’m just explaining some of the concepts and ideas behind it and telling them about some of the exercises I’m doing and people respond really positively. After all you can’t argue with “I greet this day with love in my heart”. It’s infectious! 😉
Onwards and upwards…. here’s to 2018! The best year of my life.